The Fear of Disappointing Others

Life be like: We somehow dig ourselves into situations and then say “How the fuck did I just get here?”, or at least that’s what it feels like…How about taking on the weight and struggle of others as your own? What about keeping your mouth and truth shut to avoid dealing with a reaction from someone? And when we disappoint people we feel worthless or unloveable? We need to grow out of this.

I recently moved to Oaxaca to continue on my heart-led journey, focusing my energy on Postcards From Chelsey…

Before I arrived, I agreed to be on a month-by-month lease. No contracts. Just verbal agreements on both ends via Facebook. The place I had was nice; a roommate and his boyfriend who listened to music 24/7 and left the kitchen a mess for days on end, a 4-month-old puppy who loved to bark and whose poop stayed on the front entrance stairs for sometimes over 24 hours…All in all, I knew this was not home. Let’s say I had my eyes open for other opportunities. It wasn’t until yesterday morning that I woke up with a notification from Facebook about a studio available for rent. I stormed out of bed, and headed to two whole blocks to this new studio. Instantly when I put the key through the door I knew I was home. It’s perfect for me; different colored green walls, two couches, a TINY and MINIMAL kitchen but doable, a desk, and everything that just said yes! It was cheaper…